January 14, 2009

左右為難 - A dilemma

看著,讓我受了傷。
不看,心裡又不安。
離開,也使我受傷。
不離開,有前途嗎?

默默的離開,感覺不公平,想要有個好戲來報復。
狠狠的離開,心裡爽了點,但最後受傷的是自己。
全天下的人都有經過嗎?哪個是佳雙贏解決方案?
全天下的人如何處理呢?難道有雙贏解決方案嗎?

沉澱下去?       (會溺斃吧
不如一刀兩斷?      (會痛嗎
長痛不如短痛?(笨蛋願意痛一輩子吧
默默地離開?    (心裡無謂無憾嗎

受了傷無法改變,讓傷口「痊癒」吧!
不要再一刀一刀地在心裡寫「心疼」!
因為一直流著血不治就會「要人命」!
大聲喊發洩心裡內的一顆「大石頭」!

有位友人曾對我說過:你的生活看來都很輕鬆愉快。
每個人的生活上都有各種不同問題,你說輕我說重。
你說天天快樂我卻不以為然,你無法判決我的生活。
人人尋找屬於自己的生活方式,你我已無互利互克。

回到零缺點,無實質關係。
不敢太相信,免得受傷害。

Stupid words

Felt like got burned inside .Is it afraid to lose? is it anger? is it envy? is it love? is it unsatisfy? is it some other things? It's just a transition time. Flowers bloom beautifully on the the right hands. It want them, they knows how to grew it. There's no place for me.
So what is the point? Being nice to me?Makes me hoping, but the hope itself won't come true.Is it me? or the situation? Which one to blame. How to extinguished the fire? Feel like I'm powerless. Let the time do it? It will run out of it's gas and extinguished by it self? Yes, if no one added the gas. Yes, stupid one! TOLD HIM NOT TO ADD THE GAS! That is the best way. Extinct the fire, eliminated the fire source.


By the way ... what I am talking about ... like a fool in the middle of the road, peoples keeps walking and you stunned there, looking through the Shop windows and focused on the toys inside. You are grown up man! Not a boy anymore. And WON'T typing those stupid words again. No align, No point, No structure and No Object.

You are the most important! Don't bother, just think for yourself, and happiness is in your hands.
Mama Lauren says : " I seen BRIGHT light in your future!". BELIEVE IT OR NOT. LoL

ps: Mama Lauren = A psychic , peoples believed that her prophecy are accurate. (DO YOU?)

January 11, 2009

A story: A forgotten lot.


Once upon a time, there is an empty lot , colourful flowers and various plants used to be grown there.
One day something happens there and wiped out those beautiful plants. The stupid owner let it gone, once and forever. All this day he don't feels any better with those empty lot, he tried to plant it again, he plant the seeds, he watered the seed, and he also gave it the fertilizer.

He expect and hoping that they might and will grown green like the day before. Time passed, day to day, month to month. But there's no sign the weed grown into green trees, so he checked it out. He dig the soil and starting to collect those died seed one by one. He knows that the soil are not fertilize anymore, but from many of those seeds, several of them should be grown into weeds. In fact it never grown.

He thinks that lot still had the soil and of course the soil can makes the seeds grown. He thought it must be the seeds, he must be bought bad seeds and changes the new seeds to be plant into. On the third chances he also failed. All the seeds won't grown too. He also starting to collect it, and he also thinking to discard those withered seed.
If the seeds was not the problem, then it must be the soil. If it isn'tthe soil so what is the problem. And there is no answer yet. He always like those lot like the day before, but he also tired of planting those seeds. If those lot doesn't give him any others advantaged, what is the meaning to keeps those lot? Why don't He sold it out, buy another one, and decided to sealed those fabulous old memories into the tiny treasure box.

How about that old lot? Others may take it and wants to plant something beautiful into it. The plant maybe grow and maybe not, but in the past that lot told him that he may plant something there, they will grow but no flowers sprout, It won't comming out because the lot doesn't afford to grow anymore flowers . He hope that one of those seeds left by him may sprout and grown the flower. But it is really tiring ... hoping for nothing.