在我心裡，好幾種感覺在裡面繞著呀繞著。到底是為什麼，是環境嗎？還是我自己不夠好。我哪裡不夠好？我哪裡做不夠？
其實自己都知道，是環境因素刺激了問題的出現，但是因素是因為自己不好，是替自己找理由。我的理由，我無能為力阿！老天怎麼這樣對我？！這是老天還愛惜這我，要我成長吧。成長了問題就可以解決了。就如RPG游錫，魔王打不贏在去練功！練功了、升級了、多了幾個新招術，再去和魔王挑戰。
這時候該靜下來、磨練自己的時候了。
古人常說事情順利要看「天時、地利、人和」。
沒人和，事情自然辦不到，要不然所有的事情要靠自己跑腿嗎。
沒地利，不成問題啦，可以動動腦使得地件利條有所變動。
沒天時，唉唷，這就是要看命啦！有力有錢有人，老天不允許就是不行！
我們怎麼容易辦到，就捨得就這麼一年嗎？！
使不得呀、不拾得呀。不得而失、拾得而得？
January 28, 2010
December 06, 2009
A friend's Letter : "The Forgiveness"
Hi xxx, thanks for the feedback before, for what I must do, I must consider, and the effect. Thankyou very much for your concern.
Last time I asked him, and ask about the answer. He said he got my point, but I don't think he really got it, or maybe I just don't know him well? Whatever. He said since we are broke up, and I'm noone to him, so he can only say that he is sorry. Still the same, it's always the sorry sorry and sorry again. He don't get my point or he won't fullfiled my last request.
Since I saw he is really really mean it (I mean really felt sorry), and it's happens nothing can fixed it except I had the time machine like the Doraemon does. Can be said i'd gave him my forgiveness and accept everything. But I'm still mad at him, I just need time to saw that he is really really sorry and wants me as his friend (it's all about the generousity about being a friend). I wants to believe, but this time not that easy! I made a small request, really simple ; let it be the last request from me which made him feels a little bit too much, maybe a little bit too far for him ,I considered it's only I and him it won't be a big problems. It's the last request to make me feels that he is really generous and he'd done it for his friend. I'd make it equals to the forgiveness that I gave him. I tested him, he answered no.
Suddenly many sounds flies to my head :" Are you really worth to be kept as friend? Why I kept you all this time? What for? Are you really wants me as your friend? or you just wants your freedom? I wants to be free too! I want all of this being solved too! Though I'm the game and you are the player, how to play it's all yours. I learned not to judged. But I just felt like that, I don't believed that easy, because peoples easily turns away when they got what they want. I really hates that.
I got mad, and I deleted his messenger. You cornering me, and you won't yield even half a step. You don't deserved to be my friend. He cut the other connection to me, and also cut his partner's connection to me. Whatever, I don't care anymore.
That time I've decided to choose that simple way which many peoples done. I just done it late. You and me are stranger now. No more "I considered you as my best friend"! Best friend become friend, and friend become just a friend! No more! And I dumped it all!
Before, I said that I happy for his partner, And I can't said that i'm not happy for him but when i gave my forgiveness it's all means that I'd followed his request: "I hope you will happy for me". But then, I just gave half of my forgiveness, and the another half will depends on himself! I said :"Don't you ever done it again to another people, be generous, be honest! I hope this thing only happens to me. Remember this, if you done it again you'll get the punshment! And ... I said the thing I really don't want to said before. I just ... I don't want to curse you or whatever bad to you, but I don't have another choice. You don't even yield for me, I added you as the one whom I don't wanna to care anymore.
From now on You and me are nothing at all, we are stranger.
Still this time are the last but not least, hax3 I'll wrote to you again my friend. Thanks for hearing me all this time, and I know you'll keep caring for me.
Best regards,
your troublesome friend.
Last time I asked him, and ask about the answer. He said he got my point, but I don't think he really got it, or maybe I just don't know him well? Whatever. He said since we are broke up, and I'm noone to him, so he can only say that he is sorry. Still the same, it's always the sorry sorry and sorry again. He don't get my point or he won't fullfiled my last request.
Since I saw he is really really mean it (I mean really felt sorry), and it's happens nothing can fixed it except I had the time machine like the Doraemon does. Can be said i'd gave him my forgiveness and accept everything. But I'm still mad at him, I just need time to saw that he is really really sorry and wants me as his friend (it's all about the generousity about being a friend). I wants to believe, but this time not that easy! I made a small request, really simple ; let it be the last request from me which made him feels a little bit too much, maybe a little bit too far for him ,I considered it's only I and him it won't be a big problems. It's the last request to make me feels that he is really generous and he'd done it for his friend. I'd make it equals to the forgiveness that I gave him. I tested him, he answered no.
Suddenly many sounds flies to my head :" Are you really worth to be kept as friend? Why I kept you all this time? What for? Are you really wants me as your friend? or you just wants your freedom? I wants to be free too! I want all of this being solved too! Though I'm the game and you are the player, how to play it's all yours. I learned not to judged. But I just felt like that, I don't believed that easy, because peoples easily turns away when they got what they want. I really hates that.
I got mad, and I deleted his messenger. You cornering me, and you won't yield even half a step. You don't deserved to be my friend. He cut the other connection to me, and also cut his partner's connection to me. Whatever, I don't care anymore.
That time I've decided to choose that simple way which many peoples done. I just done it late. You and me are stranger now. No more "I considered you as my best friend"! Best friend become friend, and friend become just a friend! No more! And I dumped it all!
Before, I said that I happy for his partner, And I can't said that i'm not happy for him but when i gave my forgiveness it's all means that I'd followed his request: "I hope you will happy for me". But then, I just gave half of my forgiveness, and the another half will depends on himself! I said :"Don't you ever done it again to another people, be generous, be honest! I hope this thing only happens to me. Remember this, if you done it again you'll get the punshment! And ... I said the thing I really don't want to said before. I just ... I don't want to curse you or whatever bad to you, but I don't have another choice. You don't even yield for me, I added you as the one whom I don't wanna to care anymore.
From now on You and me are nothing at all, we are stranger.
Still this time are the last but not least, hax3 I'll wrote to you again my friend. Thanks for hearing me all this time, and I know you'll keep caring for me.
Best regards,
your troublesome friend.
December 02, 2009
Testing post
Barusan bereksperimen dengan yang namanya "facebook connect" dan sekarang sedang dalam proses pengetesan.
apaitu facebook connect, sadang gue dalami hehehe. ntar dah terang baru tak jelasin dah.
apaitu facebook connect, sadang gue dalami hehehe. ntar dah terang baru tak jelasin dah.
November 30, 2009
A friend's Letter : "The Promise" (PART III)
PART III:
Did you ever been fooled before? Do you know what is the feelings? Being fooled are past tense, how to believe are present tense, and do I can believe him are future tense.
I'm still the same like the old days, I do wants to believe. But ... there's doubts in my heart. I am the one that hurts. And I am the loser. Chinese peoples says 天下無白吃的午餐 (there wouldn't be a free lunch, means everything that you do would have the fruit in return). Is it really true?
I used to believed that phrases, but now ... .
[01:26]
Maybe I should ... . But I want says that : Just say sorry won't fix anything, but do something does fix things. So what do you say?
I'm still the same like the old days, I do wants to believe. But ... there's doubts in my heart. I am the one that hurts. And I am the loser. Chinese peoples says 天下無白吃的午餐 (there wouldn't be a free lunch, means everything that you do would have the fruit in return). Is it really true?
I used to believed that phrases, but now ... .
[01:26]
Maybe I should ... . But I want says that : Just say sorry won't fix anything, but do something does fix things. So what do you say?
FIN
A friend's Letter : "The Promise" (PART II)
PART II:
i've thinking ... no I feel that. It's hurt inside, feels like burned ... . A little bit too much i think... Rampanging into my mind, and wasting the time to think think and think ... .
Actually I wants a second chances, he didn't gave it. Using those words makes me can do nothing to ... (forget it), but somehow the heart still kept a room - though it's been an empty, dusty, and already sealed- I really don't deserved for the second chances? Am I an annyoing fly so that he used the "joker card" to makes me go away? He says sorry to me, I know everyone just an ordinary human that can broke the promises. But I also human, no extraordinary.
It's easy to accept the words that you are sorry, but it's just not that easy to forgive like turning the hand upside down. I do not want to had a revenge, but I also not a saint, human heart had desire to revenge. But ... I hurt him and he hurt me back, he hurt me and I do the same, that would be an endless karma circle.
I don't want your sorry 單單對不起一句話，是無法解決事情, I don't want to tied you 我綁不了你, I just want something equal for the uncureable scar 我要你對我誠懇、足夠來摺我傷痕.Chinese says 以牙還牙 (tooth for tooth), but I do not want teeth, I wants a heart for heart. That's my condition for you, the decision is yours.
I do not want to be 最熟悉的陌生人 to you. And all this time you are the 最熟悉的陌生人. As if I had done something wrong to you, and i even not allowed talked to you when you aren't in mood.
A friend's Letter : "The Promise" (PART I)
A friend's letter
PART I:
Dear my friend, sorry I suddenly wrote a letter to you after years that I haven't mailed you one, I thought last time are really the last, looks like it become at last but not least. It's been a while that I don't dream about him, but yesterday night I dreamt of him. I don't clearly remember the dream, but looks like about a marriage? Old age? Whatever, I forgot. Today, on my way to works I got news from him that he is already been with another people. Suddenly my heart got burned, feels sullen.
Arrived to the office, got this problem taken to the office and bunch of works needs me to solved for. What a perfect day!
In fact I already aware that this day would happens. And that promises he said, my rational thought says that it is rather difficult to be kept. I asked him to make sure about that, and he gave me a confident statement. I don't belived it, but since he was sure and another me do wants to believe, so he and the emotional one succeed to convinced me to believed it (and now It's already been a torn promise).
I have got several thing flying inside-outside of my minds, about the solution, about the condition, about everything. But this is not easy to going through. I ... I want to run. Just for a while, cooling down and reducing this hurt.
PART I:
Dear my friend, sorry I suddenly wrote a letter to you after years that I haven't mailed you one, I thought last time are really the last, looks like it become at last but not least. It's been a while that I don't dream about him, but yesterday night I dreamt of him. I don't clearly remember the dream, but looks like about a marriage? Old age? Whatever, I forgot. Today, on my way to works I got news from him that he is already been with another people. Suddenly my heart got burned, feels sullen.
Arrived to the office, got this problem taken to the office and bunch of works needs me to solved for. What a perfect day!
In fact I already aware that this day would happens. And that promises he said, my rational thought says that it is rather difficult to be kept. I asked him to make sure about that, and he gave me a confident statement. I don't belived it, but since he was sure and another me do wants to believe, so he and the emotional one succeed to convinced me to believed it (and now It's already been a torn promise).
I have got several thing flying inside-outside of my minds, about the solution, about the condition, about everything. But this is not easy to going through. I ... I want to run. Just for a while, cooling down and reducing this hurt.
November 01, 2009
Kedutan~oh kedutan.
Dah beberapa hari ini, mata ane *dat-dut-dat-dut* mulu. Udah kaya mobil mo mogok gak jadi mogok eh mogok eh gak jadi. Persisnya di kiri bawah, setelah googling katanya : bakal mengalami kesedihan.
Pasal ramalan ini, gw jadi sdikit gelisah. Gak tau biasa gua gak begitu percaya, tapi ini kedutan dah berlangsung 3harian (seinget gua) dan sekarang juga masih "joged2"... . Siang tadi jadi mimpi buruk, keringetan bangunnya (emang gak pake AC seh), dan masih teringat di kepala gua bayangan mimpi tadi.
Mau percaya gak percaya, tapi kadang ramalan bener, kadang ngaco. Gak ngarti juga deh, tapi semoga gak terjadi sesuatu yang berarti deh. I Pray to you, GOD. apa yang menjadi kehendak-Mu terjadilah.
Pasal ramalan ini, gw jadi sdikit gelisah. Gak tau biasa gua gak begitu percaya, tapi ini kedutan dah berlangsung 3harian (seinget gua) dan sekarang juga masih "joged2"... . Siang tadi jadi mimpi buruk, keringetan bangunnya (emang gak pake AC seh), dan masih teringat di kepala gua bayangan mimpi tadi.
Mau percaya gak percaya, tapi kadang ramalan bener, kadang ngaco. Gak ngarti juga deh, tapi semoga gak terjadi sesuatu yang berarti deh. I Pray to you, GOD. apa yang menjadi kehendak-Mu terjadilah.
July 21, 2009
Blackberry Messenger Ver 4.6 OTA via Blackberry.com (Downgrade)
Jangan lupa buat backup dulu database BBM anda. dan Do It on Your Own Risk yach.
Boleh di coba download OTA nya via link resmi BlackBerry (langsung ketik di browser BB)
Cara tersimple dan cara termudah dibanding mesti install ulang OS. Download selesai, jalankan, dan simsalabim~ BBM lama udah terinstall. Tinggal kita backup eh restore database BBM nya getoh. Temen saya suda coba dan berhasil (dia kelinci putih nya wkwkwk, sehat dan idup hehehe).
http://mobileapps.blackberry.com/devicesoftware/entry.do?code=bbm
atau (info via kaskus)
cara downgrade lewat HH
• Uninstall BBM (Options > Advanced Options > Applications > Choose
Blackberry Messenger > Menu (blackberry logo on your keypad) > Delete
> restart HH
• Download OTA nya dr link dibawah
Dislaimer:
I'm not responsible to any lost of bbm contacts during process
8100
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8100/bbm8100_4_5.jad
8220
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8220/bbm8220_4_6.jad
8900
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8900/bbm8900_4_6.jad
9000
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/9000/bbm9000_4_6.jad
9500
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/9500/bbm9500_4_7.jad
link Kaskus
Boleh di coba download OTA nya via link resmi BlackBerry (langsung ketik di browser BB)
Cara tersimple dan cara termudah dibanding mesti install ulang OS. Download selesai, jalankan, dan simsalabim~ BBM lama udah terinstall. Tinggal kita backup eh restore database BBM nya getoh. Temen saya suda coba dan berhasil (dia kelinci putih nya wkwkwk, sehat dan idup hehehe).
http://mobileapps.blackberry.com/devicesoftware/entry.do?code=bbm
atau (info via kaskus)
cara downgrade lewat HH
• Uninstall BBM (Options > Advanced Options > Applications > Choose
Blackberry Messenger > Menu (blackberry logo on your keypad) > Delete
> restart HH
• Download OTA nya dr link dibawah
Dislaimer:
I'm not responsible to any lost of bbm contacts during process
8100
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8100/bbm8100_4_5.jad
8220
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8220/bbm8220_4_6.jad
8900
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/8900/bbm8900_4_6.jad
9000
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/9000/bbm9000_4_6.jad
9500
http://tjiputra.yapeter.net/bbm/9500/bbm9500_4_7.jad
link Kaskus
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