左右為難 - A dilemma

看著，讓我受了傷。
不看，心裡又不安。
離開，也使我受傷。
不離開，有前途嗎？

默默的離開，感覺不公平，想要有個好戲來報復。
狠狠的離開，心裡爽了點，但最後受傷的是自己。
全天下的人都有經過嗎？哪個是佳雙贏解決方案？
全天下的人如何處理呢？難道有雙贏解決方案嗎？

沉澱下去？　　　　　　　（會溺斃吧）
不如一刀兩斷？　　　　　　（會痛嗎）
長痛不如短痛？（笨蛋願意痛一輩子吧）
默默地離開？ 　　　（心裡無謂無憾嗎）

受了傷無法改變，讓傷口「痊癒」吧！
不要再一刀一刀地在心裡寫「心疼」！
因為一直流著血不治就會「要人命」！
大聲喊發洩心裡內的一顆「大石頭」！

有位友人曾對我說過：你的生活看來都很輕鬆愉快。
每個人的生活上都有各種不同問題，你說輕我說重。
你說天天快樂我卻不以為然，你無法判決我的生活。
人人尋找屬於自己的生活方式，你我已無互利互克。

回到零缺點，無實質關係。
不敢太相信，免得受傷害。

Stupid words

Felt like got burned inside .Is it afraid to lose? is it anger? is it envy? is it love? is it unsatisfy? is it some other things? It's just a transition time. Flowers bloom beautifully on the the right hands. It want them, they knows how to grew it. There's no place for me.
So what is the point? Being nice to me?Makes me hoping, but the hope itself won't come true.Is it me? or the situation? Which one to blame. How to extinguished the fire? Feel like I'm powerless. Let the time do it? It will run out of it's gas and extinguished by it self? Yes, if no one added the gas. Yes, stupid one! TOLD HIM NOT TO ADD THE GAS! That is the best way. Extinct the fire, eliminated the fire source.


By the way ... what I am talking about ... like a fool in the middle of the road, peoples keeps walking and you stunned there, looking through the Shop windows and focused on the toys inside. You are grown up man! Not a boy anymore. And WON'T typing those stupid words again. No align, No point, No structure and No Object.

You are the most important! Don't bother, just think for yourself, and happiness is in your hands.
Mama Lauren says : " I seen BRIGHT light in your future!". BELIEVE IT OR NOT. LoL

ps: Mama Lauren = A psychic , peoples believed that her prophecy are accurate. (DO YOU?)

A story: A forgotten lot.

Once upon a time, there is an empty lot , colourful flowers and various plants used to be grown there.

One day something happens there and wiped out those beautiful plants. The stupid owner let it gone, once and forever. All this day he don't feels any better with those empty lot, he tried to plant it again, he plant the seeds, he watered the seed, and he also gave it the fertilizer.

He expect and hoping that they might and will grown green like the day before. Time passed, day to day, month to month. But there's no sign the weed grown into green trees, so he checked it out. He dig the soil and starting to collect those died seed one by one. He knows that the soil are not fertilize anymore, but from many of those seeds, several of them should be grown into weeds. In fact it never grown.

He thinks that lot still had the soil and of course the soil can makes the seeds grown. He thought it must be the seeds, he must be bought bad seeds and changes the new seeds to be plant into. On the third chances he also failed. All the seeds won't grown too. He also starting to collect it, and he also thinking to discard those withered seed.

If the seeds was not the problem, then it must be the soil. If it isn'tthe soil so what is the problem. And there is no answer yet. He always like those lot like the day before, but he also tired of planting those seeds. If those lot doesn't give him any others advantaged, what is the meaning to keeps those lot? Why don't He sold it out, buy another one, and decided to sealed those fabulous old memories into the tiny treasure box.

How about that old lot? Others may take it and wants to plant something beautiful into it. The plant maybe grow and maybe not, but in the past that lot told him that he may plant something there, they will grow but no flowers sprout, It won't comming out because the lot doesn't afford to grow anymore flowers . He hope that one of those seeds left by him may sprout and grown the flower. But it is really tiring ... hoping for nothing.

Orange Polo

God gave it
God made it happen by chance
God also makes us meet
Chinese people often says : 有緣才會相見。一切是上帝決定。

Looks like it's a chrismas present from God.

Niat - A 101th birthday anniversarry

=edited=
11/29

Pecel Lele in Hujan Badai

11/29-08[00:05]

Malam minggu, lagi gak ada kerjaan dan kebetulan ada yang "ngidam" makan lele so calling2 ngumpulin orang pigi makan, dan terkumpullah total 4 orang. Gak tau ada angin apa yang bikin taxi BG 88 bisa keluar dari "persembunyiannya" (hahaha), dan akhirnya gua gak jadi keluarin mobil (enakan naek taxi 88 euyy nyaman). Taxi dah nunggu 5 min lebih, "sopirnya" pun sudah ngomel2 (sorry bro hehehe). Jemput sana jemput sini dan eng ing eng sampe lah ke resto PECEL LELE yang uenak dan wihh MAKNYOSS lah ( I loved this restaurant, need sorta buck of cash but the taste is really GOOD ).
 

Awalnya seperti kebiasaan orang sini kita mulai saling sodor menyodorkan menu, dan dengan tidak malu2 akhirnya gua mulai pesen, "lele empat, cumi goreng tepung satu, iga bakar satu, ikan seluang satu, nasi empat, dan ... Oy nak minum apo kamu? Mas aku Kelapa Batok sikok. "

Initial J_____: " Teh panas sikok. "

"Taxi driver"_: " Boleh lah, sikok lagi batok. "

Initial F_____: " mmm ( sambil senyum2 sendiri- gila kali y hehe) , sikok lagi batok. "
 

Karena satu-satu pada kompakan pesen Kelapa muda dan sambil ketawa2 pesen makannya, si waiter nya pun ikut2an ketawa-ketawa ( awas loe gak konsen, ikut2an aja!). Gak lama datang lah teh dan kelapa-kelapa mudanya (aseeekk). Gak lama datang pula piring, diikuti dengan nasi, cumi, ikan. Beberapa menit kemudian datang Iga bakar. Berselang beberapa menit lagi dimulai percakapan lagi :

" Omong2 mano iwak nyo yeh?"

" Lupo kali mas nyo?"

"Masss ( lagi gosok2 meja seberang) , ikannyo manoO?! ", sambil tunjuk2 meja sendiri dan memeragakan angka empat. Bujunggbuneeeng, masnya ternyata lupa beneran... . Tapi gak lama datang si waiter nganterin tiga cobek dengan masing2 isi dua ikan lele," Mas, ini tigo dulu sikoknyo nanti ." Sambil berpandangan dansambil menanti siapa yang bakal ngejawab itu waiter, Initial F bilang ke waiter nya ," Gak usah deh tiga ini bae." Gak lama  terdengar *dhuer* *byarr* bunyi petir dan diikuti dengan hujan deras.
 

Makan pun hampir selesai, dan kenapa harus selalu gua yang jadi "sapu jagat" ngabisin cumi goreng dan ikan  seluang goreng yang tersisa. Dan ... *Waaaa* gak tau sapa pokonya ada yang ngomong (gua sibuk "nyapu2") ," Nah! mati lampu .... "

"tapi itu sebelah idup lampunyo".

"dak tau, mungkin lain len (line-red) nyo, ato lampu emerjensi (emergency-red)".

CLIMAX is comming~~ TO BE CONTINUED-
03/12-2008[22:40]
 
Mati lampu ON last episode, dan banjir AT episode kali ini =P~ ... (kapya sinetron2 luar ajah heiheihei)
dan cerita berlanjut.

Peduli setan ama mati lampu, untung makanan udah abis hehe. Buruan cuci tangan dulu sebelum tar aer nya habis (mesin aer kan gak bisa jalan tanpa listrik, tapi biasanya masih nyisa tekanan aer). Balik kemeja , berasa kaya mao diusir2in sama waiter nya. Mereka mau ngasih lilin tapi rada2 gak rela gitu, dan kebetulan bego pula itu si Initial J bilang udah, yeeee jadi gakdikasih lilin kan diluar masih ujan, boleh dong duduk nongkrong sejenak. Dan si Initial P yg selalu gua sebut-sebut sebagai "Taxi driver" udah gak nahan digituin ama waiternya, so pigi la dia ke cashier nya. Dengan gak enak hati gua nemein, dan mereka beruda yang masih di dalem gak lama ngikut.

Bis bayar maunya langsung cabut tapi berhubung ujan masih sangat gede, mau gak mau duduk dulu di meja bagian depan. Ngobrol2 sejenak eh ... dari trotoar ada aer masuk ... brrr brrr brrr ... pelan tapi cepet ( naoan ah). beuh ... kita saling lihat lihatan ... dan segera buru2 naek ke tangga masuk restonya. COZ ITU AERNYA DATANG BEGITU CEPET! Gak berapa lama aernya udah menuhin pelataran resto ... . Makjang apaan niiih, banjir bandang yak?!
 
"Oy cakmano?! Tambah banjer bae ini, itu tukang parker ado punyo payung besak, laju lah apo?!" seru gue. Si P bilang," cak mano ini basah lah sendal". "Nak cakmano lagi gek dak acak balek" balas gua. Akhirnya kita bergegas masuk ke mobil, diikuti oleh si J. Sejenak ada pengunjung lain yang ikut merasa terjebak bilang,"Pak makmano gek sendalnyo basah! mano besok nak kuliah ini ." "Yo laju laju lah, angkat bae sendalnyo" balas sang bapak. Gua dan F saling berpandangan ," nah lepas be sendal kau, kan pasti basah jugo" timpal gue. Akhirnya gua berdua selamat sampe ke mobil dan untungnya sendal kami berdua masih KERING =)) wakakaka.

Ujannya bener-bener gede, wiper mobil P udah disetel max maoh gak kuat ngehalau aer ujan yang gitu deras. Dan kacau nya lagi, si P jarang-jarang keluarin mobil sedannya dan pada malam yang bersejarah ini mobilnya pertamakali "SPA" dalam aer (banjir) hahahaha :p~.

Sekian cerita yg membosankan dari gua. ^^v wakaakaka

[Cun2]

Let the past be.

Changes  the future. 

將錯就錯、破碎檢心、願許修復、間距何解。

修復破碎、將心檢回、打破間距、創尋盛機。

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DON'T GET WHAT YOU SAID
KEEP THINKING, WHAT'S THE MEANING???
WORST THINKER. STUPID. DULL.

WANTS TO KNOW THE REAL MEANING
BECAUSE THAT STUPID ONE DON'T GET IT.

Windows Crash after Antivirus scanning / Malware removal scanning (unsolved)

Indonesian ver.

VIRUS! Discan Restart, di Restart Error, di Matiin eh malah Restart.

Neh virus ngebetein banget. Barusan ketaonan 2 hari lalu di PC gue. Sampe sekarang belum nemuin cara basmi itu virus. Udah gw coba langkah2 di internet but kejegal di ... 'tar dah gw ceritain. Intinya gw lagi sharing dan mencaritahu cara pembasmiannya, andaikata ada yg baca blog gw ini dan punya pengalaman serupa; gw sangat berterimakasih jikalau anda punya cara penyelesaiannya (klo gak ada ya apa boleh buat, gw masih terus berjuang hehe) dan andaikata ada yg PC nya masih bernasib sama dengan gue boleh pantau terus blog gw. Kalo ketemu caranya tar gw sharing dah.

(I) Asal mula ...

Disuatu hari, malem2 gitu dah lagi enak2 browsing eh ... muncul pop up IE (IE gw buka window baru sendiri bok ...ebad ...) noh disana masak redirect ke http:// /xxx/xxx/dst/dll~ . Makjai ini kompie kena infeksi dari mane, trus pakek buka2 web aneh, jangan2 trojan makek kompie gue buat nyerang server orang. Kalo ampe inet gw di blacklist kan berabe = = .

Curious donk. Gue suruh lah si antivirus gw yg free tersebut ngescan. Scan punya scan nemulah beberapa file INFECTED! Makjang ... ini pasti si koko yg suka sembarangan buka2 web dan donlod2. ( tapi gak yakin jg ... soalnya kemarenya ada temen gw yg pakek kompie, dan kayanya sesudah itu mulai ada pop up gak keruan. Yang kerumah gw kemaren2 sadar diri lah yah. Bayarrr biaya pusing dan biaya selfservice PC guwe yach! LoL hehe *bcanda* beliin gw PCbaru aje )

yak story continue-ing ...

Lanjoot. Yak scan punya scan lage, eh anjritt malah restart??! Aneh, dulu kaga pernah begene dah. Okeh restart lu sono = =+ gw punya pamungkas buat tao loe kanapa restart sendiri tanpa disuruh.
[My Computer] -> [properties] -> [Advanced] -> [Start & recovery] -> [setting] -> [System failure] -unclick-> AutoRestart. (tak matiin auto restartnya)

Yak gua scan lage, kali ini pakek Spyware removal (merknya gw rahasiain, yg pasti free juga seh ... ). Ketemu beberapa, scannya masih berlanjut, dan ... !@$@!#$^ doi mao restart lagi tapi berhubung dah dimatiin jadinya muncul BLUESCREEN pertanda windows nya CRASH. (restart tadi sebenernya begitu juga, but karena autorestart so gak keliatan) Nah sekrang keliatan doi kenapa restart, tapi diliat error nya kok gak jelas gitu gak kaya dulu Vidcard gw or CPU mao rusak ada keterangan xxxdriver.

(II) Symptoms alias gejala

1. Pop-Up Web http://88.xxx dst lupa (panjang webnya)
2. Pop-Up Web semacam menawarkan security dari virus. Muncul pilihan yes cancel. trus pop up websitenya yang memunculkan tampilan seolah2 sedang men-scan komputer gw (so Fake ah)
3. Antivirus / Malware scanning berakibat kompie restart dengan sendirinya atau jika telah mematikan autorestart bakal muncul tampilan layar biru (Windowsnya Crash)
4. Di- Shut down kagak mau, malah restart
5. Di- Restart malah keluar tampilan layar biru ( Crash tadi) dengan error C000xxx sekian2 (kode bisa berubah2)

(III) Proses Penanganan ... (Unsolved)

Bingung 11 keliling (7 aja dah poseng), dites lagi dengan scanning antivirus, dan hasilnya sama. Gak mau kalah yah googling donk, cari orang2 yang pernah posting di inet dan punya masalah yang sama. Rada susa nyarinya ... tapi ada ketemu. Sama dia disaranin ke web berikut http://wiki.castlecops.com/Malware_Removal_and_Prevention:_Overview .
Dah gua coba step2nya tapi gua keganjel di Malware scanningnya. Ya iyalah didepan tadi aja mao scanning udah kagak bisa. (Anehnya orang yg di web tadi bilang dia pakek tips di web itu kompienya udah bersih cling2 kaya direndem ama baycling ="= )

Gw coba Dalam SAFE-MODE scanning kompie ( Teken F8 sebelum muncul logo windows dan tampilan progress start-up windows), Drive E gw scanning pakek AVG 7.5 ( Gw udah jalanin langkah2 di wiki castlecops, udah dibersihin semua file2 temporary nya dan juga registrynya) hasilnya bersih. Kenapa gw scan drive E karena file2 sistem gw taro di E:/ bukan di C:/ seperti kebanyakan orang. Dan hasilnya bikin butek = = ... ya eyalah problem masih ada masak Antivirus bilang dah bersih. Mo gw scan pakek Ad-Aware (malware remover) kagak bisa jalan di safe mode. Dan gua mao restart (mau kemode biasa dan jalanin Ad-Aware) !@$#$@% lage2 muncul layar biru. SH*T lah ah. fakiu ngebetein. Sudah lah OL pakek laptop aja bebas virus tadi.

(IV) Uneg2

Malas dah ngurusinnya, besok2 aja lage. Iya sehabis muncul layar biru kalo gw restart dan login ke windows, biasanya windows mengetahui ada error terjadi dan menghendaki kita melapor. teken aja "send report" dan akan di pop-up IE nya ke web microsoft. Disana kita disuru kasih feed back kemereka kenapa error tadi bisa terjadi. Pilih la pilihan 1 sampe 5 mulai dari Hardware error, Hd nya penuh, Karena mejalankan anti virus, dll.

Gw klik yg mejalankan antivirus. disana ada dikasih keterangan. But sangat kurang membantu. Ada redirect link ke web ygmenyediakan antivirus ( of course yg kerjasama ama si microsoft ) dan ada satu lagi , cuma lupa link apa. Intinya Microsoft kaga memberikan jawaban yang jelas dan lugas, gimana cara agar si windows kaga restart2 lage. Padahal kan itu karena produknya banyak lobang2 yg nggak secure.

(V) Harapan

Gw berharap secepatnya menemukan jalan keluar, tentunya kaga dengan Format ulang (arena format ulang sangat menghabiskan waktu dan menghilangkan sebagian data2 gua). Bagi temen2 yang punya ide, saran, atau Cara removal daripada error tersebut, Sangat saya harapkan commentnya.

Trms.

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English ver.
I found posting from googling, that he had same problem like me and he using the http://wiki.castlecops.com/Malware_Removal_and_Prevention:_Overview steps to cleaning his computer. He also said that now his computer is the cleanest one.

First of all I found My PC infected by viruses
1. IE pop up and redirected to http://88. xx (an ip numer)/ xxx/xxx/
2. IE pop up andshows that my computer are not secure, ask me wheter wants to use their software ( allows me to choose YES/CANCEL) and it'll redirected to a webpage (xxxsecure etc, don't remember)
3. On antivirus / adware removal tools scanning, windows immediately restarted, when I get rid the autorestart option it'll shows the blue screen (windows Crash)
4. On rebooting it Crash. On shutdown It won't shutdown either rebooting.

I done steps on the wiki castle corp but I can't done it yet because when i scan the system using malware removal tools it'll rebooted ( crash) I also done the antivirus scanning on the safe mode, it doesn't restarting and found 0 infections, and when i want to rebooted it crashed.

Until now i haven't found the way to get rid this error. Microsoft error report also don't helps. If you read my post and you had same problem as I, I really appreciate if you can help me solving this error. And if you don't have the solution you can monitoring my posting, I'll post the solution when I solved those errors on my PC. Your comment are really appreciated.

Thanks
Junn.


Two weeks latter...
PROBLEM SOLVED

Too troubled to get it fixed. I say pass and began from zero. GOT IT FORMATTED! = =+
installed all that bishy bashy supporting programs. And *puff* it just back as if virus never came!

11.01.09